Well, at first i thought about starting a TikTok diary to document my experiences in the last 5 years, but realised I am way too old for that. I then thought surely I’m still young enough to show my face on YouTube, but honestly the thought of having to brush my hair and look presentable often just isn’t for me (yes, I love my pyjamas). But when I really thought about it, watching someone talk about something can sometimes distract you from what they’re really saying. So luckily enough for me and my tangled hair, I decided on starting a blog.
I have 4 siblings, all in their teens and I have recently moved back home to my mother’s in hopes to stop renting and climb that impossible property ladder.
I like to think I am a good person, I hope I am. But I know equally I have a lot of flaws and issues that I love to bury, but I’m sure they’ll show their faces again at some point in my life.
I have a small amount of friends that I consider family and I don’t socialise a lot because I hate small talk, queues and hangovers. I don’t date because dating means having to do horrid things like go for dinners and meet the parents and realistically I only have time for the men I read about in my fantasy books and they can’t ask you out and then let you down.
I am 30 in 2 weeks. And don’t worry, I actually couldn’t be happier. I am so ready to leave my 20s behind. I might be the only one, or I might be everyone, but the last 10 years has been a shitshow of trials and tribulations, financial errors of judgement and way too many tattoos. And just like my credit score, nothing can change over night. But right now, I just know I am about to enter my adulting phase (for a second time) as soon as I shake off 29.
I’ve worked in many places, from Sainsbury’s when I was a teenager to years in nightclubs and pubs and I have just left my latest 5 year career stint as a Police Dispatcher in London, UK. And I’m tired, mentally and emotionally. And that’s not from the 12 hour night and day shifts. But from my last 2 years of employment with the police and I will tell you why soon.
At the same time as me wanting to write this blog, it almost feels self indulgent. I think to myself, who actually cares. But I guess no one has to care. Although I hope to spread awareness and the knowledge that I have learnt over the last few years to anyone bored enough to visit my page.
Issy Vine
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